| wow its been a while since i done this, but i need to let go of some stuff - come to think about it, i really got to change my xanga name, or whatever you call it haha, cause thats just not me anymore .. well cept for the weird part ;p-
As this year comes to an end i was thinking back on so many different things.. I have grown up soo much these past three years,more than i ever will in my whole life i beleive, mainly this past year learning from my previous mistakes, (yeah ima be writing about three years in a short writing so it will be hard to make sense haha). from the endless drama with people, the fights i got into, being in the hospital in a result of fighting and the immature people that were NOT worth the time (we won all the one on one fights anyways  )..bouncing from girlfriend to girlfriend, realizing my stupidity and immaturity im done with that... the stupidest things i did just to have fun. sitting in that court room explaining myself to a judge. realizing my REAL friends from the fake ones.
most of all i am thankful i realized who my true friends are. they know exactly who they are.. the people that were there for me no matter what, and would try to help me at the cost of their own time. the people who would help me before they helped them selves, the people sitting next to me in that court room, the people making me realize my stupidity, the people there in every dramatic situation, every fight we would be there for eachother, and i would be there again just to make sure they are okay.. yeah i am aware that most of this stuff is not coming out to make sense to a lot of you, but im sure the ones that need to know it will understand..a special thanks to ANGEL, though we just started being friends.she has been there for me to talk to me through my problems and reminded me to laugh in times i really needed it.. thanks angeL soO much.. just remember to smile for me and always remember you have people like me, friends, who love you soOoO much and wouldnt know what to do without you  .. yeah i have grown up sooo much these past years, sometimes its not easy and you try to hold on to those moments in your life where you dont have to worry about a thing, but there is a time where you must let go and grow up.. but i just want all my friends to remember that no matter how much i grow up i will be here to help them, to still be a shoudler to cry on, to be the person you can release all your problems too, and i will listen to every single word they have to say for me, for at the moment you need me, there is no one else in the world i care for more..
living your life wondering "what if this and what if that.." really sucks.. like Robert said "its like if you decided to kill yourself slowly, then at your last breaths you were like [maybe life wasnt so Ba--] too late you are dead =\" .. yeah thats a lot what its like..
oh yeah and one last quote from me "Im glad to have friends like you so we can look back and laugh at how stupid we used to be."-im thinking of making that me senior quote for next year.. haha
seems like a lot of rumors about me flying around ?? i say one thing and it gets streatched sooo far.. a lot like a little camp fire in a forest turning out to burn a whole countryside down haha ..o well
Peace out.. -Ridge |
